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I will start picking my life back in order.. the way it was before you came.

MY LAST NOTE TO DAVID

What love to me....¦ is your happiness. I'm not like those who fall in love so I can be happy. All I need is for you to be smiling. I'm good with that. I will have my heart healed someday though I do not know when. Life may lead me somewhere but I thank you for the lessons learned. I'm getting wiser and wiser each and every time. I do not see myself in a state of being in a relationship any longer. My heart is totally closed until further notice. It's frozen shut. But I don't blame you. I won't. I came to your life to help you move on with your ex. I guess God allowed you to know me so your heart will be healed with all the hurts and pains. I hope I was able to help you with that and I guess I did coz you are perfectly okay now. You got a new love which shows you have moved on. I have done my part. BUt just to let you know, all these time i have loved you. So much it hurts. But I guess that's what makes it all worth it. The pain reminds me that what we had was true and special. I will always love you David. You will always have that special place in my heart. I pray you have a happy marriage. Take care of her. I hope she does too. Coz it will hurt me too bad if she won't take good care of the heart she took away from me.

I'll be waiting till it's time..

Different Kinds of Readers

I found this while scanning the net. Haha!

  What kind of reader are you?

• The Devourer:Each book is a snack for this kind of reader--but it doesn't mean that s/he won't enjoy each book just as much. 
• The Lover:Books read by this kind of reader are read in hidden, stolen moments at the most unexpected times.
• The Slow Dancer:Books are a treat that this kind of reader savors. Slow and steady wins this reader's race, as his/her eyes take in and taste each and every word.
• The Addict:Books are a conquest to this kind of reader. S/he will buy more books than s/he can read, but s/he will ALWAYS have something to read.
• The Classic:Books of the past are a gift to this reader. Prose in the style of early contemporary authors, or stories written long ago, are favorites for this reader.
• The Die-Hard:Genres are a way of life for this reader. S/he finds a niche and sticks to it--veering from what s/he knows for short bursts of time.
• The Advocate:This reader is a lover of books. S/he is not just a reader, but an advocate of reading--hoping that the future will contain more readers.

A Letter to my Boaz

Dear Boaz, 

Just in case you're just around somewhere, you need to know I'm waiting. I know you're doing the same too. Yet now that it's not the right time yet well I gotta do what I gotta do. 

I'll keep working in the field since it's harvest. Dad's been more strict so my standards are alot more higher than usual. I don't think that'll ever be an issue. Right? 

My heart's bandaged right now coz I chose to disobey so I got some good spanking. But otherwise I'm being molded to being the "Right" one for you. So I guess I'm going to be alright. =)

I still wanna do so much stuff I wanna share with you in the future. So I'm taking a step of faith everyday.
And oh, it is really funny to be reminded that Ruth is for Boaz, not David. Lol... 

I guess I'll see u around then.. very soon. The thought gives me butterflies. Hihi.

Ruth