...new chapter

 

"Never let go of your numbers, till your very last day." ~Boss Franco

I sat there together with the selected few who will be one of the first to undergo the transition imposed by the company as our boss was debriefing us for the upcoming changes. Trying very hard not to let my tears fall, I pretended to be smiling a practiced smile so no one will notice the nostalgia that's been creeping in my system for a quite a while now.

I hate changes. I guess I'm having anxiety attack. Soon enough I'll be leaving the comforts of my usual routine, I'll be missing my team who's been with me since I worked in the company. Those people I used to joke around and cry with, those pals I used to share a cup of coffee and small talks.

I guess that's the very essence of life. It goes on. Another moving on chapter for me, and I guess for all of us. Time to learn something new but not so totally different. Time to meet and establish new camaraderie. Time to prove again and again what I'm capable of to myself and to others.

"With your character Kim, it won't be difficult for you." Encouraging words uttered by Ate Leish as we were having breakfast the other day. She must have sensed my hesitation about the transfer that's about to take place. I'm somewhat glad that there are alot of people who really believes in me when alot of times I tend to doubt myself.


As what my mom used to say, "Nothing is permanent in this world, everything is temporary. There are no permanent friends, and no permanent enemies either. You won't always stay on top, and you can't be at the bottom all your life as well. Only goes to show that the world is really round."


I will miss Arcalz. I feel like I'm losing my other foot. =(

12.29.13

The date that marked the birth of my photography career. Lol... I'm just kidding. I guess I'm just glad to share at least I was able to to something different than my normal routine. Don't get me wrong, I love photography. I like to imagine sometimes.. (wink!)

12.29.13

Nine couples. Nine love stories. These love birds decided to renew their vows before the year ends. I was picked via unanimous decision to facilitate everything.. yes, everything!!

On the back of their minds was a simple ceremony, while I was planning something they've never done and couldn't even imagine doing. To go with the flow, I made them do prenuptial photoshoot sessions on different locations as my first surprise. I can't imagine the look on the guy's faces...lmao!!!

"A photoshoot???!!!!!...what are we suppose to do??

"Relax dad, just do as I say", was my calm response.

I'm grateful to have a handful of friends who helped me out. From the gowns, tux, rings, cake, and all of it. Now I know how it feels to be wedding planner. Haha!!! Never easy, yet very fulfilling.

 To make the long story short, the wedding was a success. I was teary eyed seeing the smile in their faces while the brides are walking down the aisle one at a time until the KISS.

I came to a realization, now that the stress has finally worn out, that Love may not work for me but it can be a happily ever after for someone else. I have the gift. Now some friend's friends are looking for me. I guess it will just be a hobby for now, though my mom is asking if I wanna pursue it or open a business.. lol. Not for now..

Soon, we'll see. Who knows right?? =)

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“The clock holds me nowhere. Nowhere. Nowhere. There is nothing else but now and the shifting depth of the night. I sit at a table alone drinking coffee and listening and surviving. I should not be here or anywhere. I should not be breathing or taking space. I should not have been given this moment or anything else. I should not have this opportunity again to live. I do not deserve it or deserve anything yet it is here and I am here and I Have it all of it still. I won't have it again. This moment or this chance they are the same and they are mine if I choose them and I do. I want them. Now and as long as I can have them they are both precious and fleeting and gone in the blink of an eye don't waste them. A moment and an opportunity and a life, all in the unseen tick of a clock holding me nowhere. My heart is beating. The walls are pale and quiet. I am surviving. ”

MONEY MATTERS

Money. It has been a matter of importance to everyone earning a living. On a personal note, though my family may have enough I was raised to work for what I want. Life gave us our share of difficulty where we almost had nothing. It was during those times I learned not to trust much on people who doesn't even care making a living for themselves. How can you lend to someone who has no intention of paying you back what you worked for??

 

I remember my mom investing our money to someone who is a gold-digger / lazy ass for some business with the intention of helping him support his family which finally turned out him getting all our money for his own. OK that was past but it left a very traumatic memory till now I never gave back the respect I once had.

 

However, we were raised and taught the vitue of kindness and generousity. Growing up I realized that there are others who are less fortunate than I am. My mom would always remind us to share our blessings whether big or small. It shouldn't always be money. There are alot of things we can share, whether time or effort or anything.

 

Earning money since I was 18 has been my turning point when it comes to it. I hate greedy people. Well let's say I pity them. Imagine the effort of earning much then keeping it. There's nothing wrong with that since money can be of great use in case of any emergency. Money can help you buy whatever you want, let you go wherever you desire. But I'm more happy seeing other people happy coz I was able to help them. Money has never been an issue for me.

 

As my 2014 resolution, I promised myself to fix my bank account. People very close to me resent and love the fact that I am kind yet I have the tendency to be abused because of it. I love so I give.

 

After being a very loving and caring and genorous lover I was, I decided to be very careful this time. After being fooled around leaving me almost bankrupt, it's time for some renovation. Changes has to be imposed.

 

I will still be my old self. Kindness is a matter of the heart. Once you're not into it, then it may take a lifetime to learn. I'd rather have a small amount yet with a happy heart than have much silver with less joy. =)