Wednesday, July 9, 2014

My heart hurt for HER



It was just like yesterday. Looking back when I was still 16 and in love to the guy who broke my heart the first time. I was happy then. But of course if it's not meant to be, then it isn't. And I have moved on totally since once upon a time. 

Years passed. Yes, I moved on but that never meant I stopped caring. I still do even as a friend. Ten years after our so called "puppy-love", he got married. Years prior that I met her. I once called her the "chosen" one. We became good friends, not minding the fact that I was the ex and she, the present. Funny thing is, we even never made it an issue really. We just accepted the fact that we both loved the same guy in a different time though. 

Yet sometimes there is no such thing as Happy Ever After. I just learned that their story just ended with I believe never ending tears and bitterness. As I listen to the story I can't help but feel sorrow to the fact that all those times she chose to be quite in her statuses and shout-outs was the very time she may have needed someone to listen. I had the gut feeling that something was wrong and I decided to give her the space but it wasn't until today that I confirmed everything.

I resent the fact that she loved him too much she almost lost herself in the process. True, men never change especially when it comes to the issue of POLYGAMY even if they get married. It is a disease that is incurable by women. If only women can understand their value just to be treated as spare tires.

She is strong but I know what she has been through made her stronger. I cannot even be so sure if I can handle such humiliation in case. But seeing her posts nowadays made me realize that she is way more that I expected of her. 

My heart bleeds accepting the fact that he really never matured. I hate that he never even had a twinge of remorse for hurting her so bad she was beaten to a pulp. My heart breaks towards that girl who promised me that she'll take care of him and love him with everything she is and promised him a lifetime. She loved him too much, that I know. She loved him to the very depths of her soul she was broken into pieces and scarred that'll serve to remind her a lifetime of lesson and tears. And I'm crying because she doesn't deserve to be treated such. 

How can you love with all your heart and be given such pain in return? Can love be fair sometimes?

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