Clean Slate

 

New year. The long awaited time came for me to start the year right. 2013 has not been very good to me I must say. It was in fact the most traumatic wherein lessons were learned the hard way. I had my share of regrets I can't turn back time though to straighten things up.

 

12:01 when everyone was busy celebrating the start of 2014 with fireworks and food and festivities, I was inside the sleeping quarter of my office silently uttering a prayer of thanksgiving to GOD for everything the past year has given. It wasn't a smooth ride, it was a roller coaster one actually. A ride I badly wanted to forget. Yet amongst it all, I am still thankful for all the lessons learned, the broken heart, the betrayed trust, and the awakened fairytale not to mention the prince turned coward running with his horse when my castle collapsed.

 

I thank God for the pain he allowed coz it made me stronger. I thank Him for the broken trust, coz I learned who my real friends are. I thank Him for the betrayal coz it taught me to be cautious. I thank him for the lessons learned the hard way coz it will forever remind me not to do the same mistake again.

 

Now that the new year has come. It is like a new chapter for me. New memories to make. My heart is not completely healed yet. It's still on process. But soon enough I will be completely okay.

 

I promised myself to start anew. I refuse to think about him. Every memory of him is associated with pain and betrayal. I will start all over again. I promise I will be much better, much stronger than my old self.

"No, this is not the beginning of a new chapter in my life; this is the beginning of a new book! That first book is already closed, ended, and tossed into the seas; this new book is newly opened, has just begun! Look, it is the first page! And it is a beautiful one!” JOYBELL C.